Our final goodbye for Toby was yesterday evening. A joint decision after helping him through a major seizure on Sunday afternoon, and his ongoing decline in health due to the brain tumour.
Family, and also my friends where I hang out online were so supportive. You know who you are. These are my thanks for reminding me that there is no pin-point time, that avoiding his suffering was from a place of love, and that you have been there too.
It was spinning that I turned to in my last afternoon with the little guy. He slept in his bed, and I stood plying this spin on my Andean pushka. Meditation as I watched Nilda Callanaupa’s “Andean Spinning” video again.
This was spun from 3 batts totalling 3.2 oz from Enting Fibrecraft. The set is “Mulled Cider,” hand-carded from Shetland wool (brown, grey overdyed), merino and tussah silk. One batt is Shetland-only. It is a 2-ply yarn that I am now spinning from an outer-pull plying ball.
Straightforward but textured. In other words, exactly what I needed to have a good last day with our Toby Hopeful without freaking him out. Naomi, your work is doing good in the wide world.
We miss him terribly. Melvin is trying to process a collar without a Toby. For all the things that will now change – no foot-warming as I write to you for example – we must now adjust. Toby came to us traumatized but what came through was his lion heart. He overcame blindness, hoarseness, paralysis that extended even to his tongue. The spirit never changed, and I am glad he was undaunted even when he couldn’t stand any longer.
Thankfully, he went peacefully and with the both of us by his side.